The Decision Has Been Made

Saw the Dr. this morning. She thinks that my lymph nodes have shrunk a little but due to some pain, she believes the tumors have not been reduced enough. My kidney function is lacking somewhat too. She explained how she would like to do the chemo next. Bad dose this coming Monday, easier doses for the following 2 weeks. Week 4 start over. This is supposed to be easier for my body to take. God please let it be easier. So Jay asked her point blank. Is this method palliative or curative? Palliative. There is no cure. So he asked her what my prognosis is with and without the chemo. 6-8 months without, 2-5 years with. That was not a hard decision for me to make. I choose years over months. So we continue chemo next Monday.

I believe God was right there telling me to go ahead and accept the treatment. If He wanted me to die right now I think He would have taken me already. I just pray that before the chemo starts He will just let me know that He is going to take care of me so that I don't start feeling deserted and faithless again. This time I want to just know that He is here and not doubt Him. I believe He will get me through this, in His way, in His time. And as the song goes, I will praise Him in this storm.

Your prayers are still welcomed and appreciated. Thank you so much for all of your prayers and well wishes.
God Bless you all!