Stop the Whining

I've been doing a lot of whining lately. I like to blame it on the chemo but I'm sure satan has been at work too. I want so much to use this cancer as a testimony of my unbending faith in God. However, my faith does bend from time to time so I pray that God will understand that I am a weak human being and forgive me for lacking the faith that he requires of me and help me to have more faith. My prayer today is this: O, Lord, I want others to be able to boast to You about my perseverence and faith in any persecutions and trials I endure. (2 Thess. 1:4) Help me to remember that others observe the way I handle trials. I want to have a faithful witness, Lord. (From Praying God's Word by Beth Moore).